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I felt like writing a subtle attack against someone who wrote a negative comment against me. But I decided against it. Honestly, it didn’t bother me so much. What bothered me was he was attacking me because of a personal ire, rather than a negative criticism.

But hey, karma.

I sent an application for a new job. I really WANT THIS JOB. Although I would guess there’s only a 2% chance that I’d actually get picked. :/ One can hope.

One can hope.

Another color quiz.

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I’ve been called selfish a couple of times in my entire life. I think this is total bullshit. In my opinion, the people who has ever called me selfish are those who are selfish themselves. I think I can safely say that I’m generous to people who I think deserves it.

Here are the people who tick me off, selfishly-speaking:

1. Those who think that the world owes them something. “I deserve this because I worked so hard, BOOHOO!” And whines it for all the world to hear.
2. Those who rant on someone who gives something to someone else who they feel don’t deserve it, ESPECIALLY if they feel they deserve it more than the other person. “My mom gave my older brother a car! He’s mooching on her! The car should’ve been MINE! I’m the better son!”
3. Insinuating that they have the “right” to be given something, such as demanding their parents to buy them something because they deserve it. “I’ve finished college now, I’m going to freak if my parents don’t buy me a car!”
4. People who complain about other people’s “frivolous” way of life, when these people worked hard for their money and they on the other hand, are jobless.

And I hate people who ASK and then whine when they don’t get it. And then whine, then whine again. I honestly hate doing or giving something to someone who wants it so badly, but would NEVER do the same thing in return. Not like I would really ask them to do so, but the thought that they would do the same for you NEVER hurts.

Jaczie’s Existing Situation

Hopes to obtain an improved position and greater prestige, so that she can procure for herself more of the things she has had to do without.

Jaczie’s Stress Sources

Wants a partner with whom she can share fully in an atmosphere of cloudless serenity, but her compulsion to demonstrate her individuality leads her to adopt a critical and demanding attitude. This introduces discord and leads to alternating periods of drawing closer and drawing apart, so that the ideal state she desires is not allowed to develop. Despite the urge to gratify her natural desires, she imposes a considerable self-restraint on her instincts in the belief that this demonstrates her superiority and raises her above the common herd. Discerning, critical and particular, having taste and discrimination. These qualities, combined with her tendency to judge things for herself and to express her opinions with authority. She enjoys the original, the ingenious and the subtle, striving to ally herself with others of similar taste who can help her in her intellectual unfolding. Desires admiration and the esteem of others.

Jaczie’s Restrained Characteristics

Feels listless, hemmed in, and anxious; considers that circumstances and forcing her to restrain her desires. Wants to avoid open conflict with others and to have peace and quiet.

Jaczie’s Desired Objective

Suffering from the effects of those things which are being rejected as disagreeable, and is strongly resisting them. Just wants to be left in peace.

Jaczie’s Actual Problem

The need for esteem–for the chance to play some outstanding part and make a name for herself–has become imperative. She reacts by insisting on being the center of attention, and refuses to play an impersonal or minor role.

Jaczie’s Actual Problem #2

Her natural ability to examine everything with critical discrimination has been distorted into an attitude of harsh disapproval, which opposes and denigrates without regard to the real facts.

One Peeve:

I’m pretty much disappointed that I didn’t have my Gotfrag salary back when I always traveled to Seoul. There were so many things I wanted to buy there… stationery, pens!!, notebooks, clothes… that was shopping heaven. But there were budget constraints so I had to be somewhat frugal. :/ I want to go back to Seoul. Or live there. Whatever. I love Korea. Girls are so cute and chic but not as over-the-top as Japanese girls.

Two:

I really, really need to fix my sleep schedule. I want to at least go to yoga class 4 times a day. But my sleeping is so erratic that it’s fucking my plans up. I neeeeeeeeed to get up roughly the same time every day. There’s 4:30pm, 6:00pm and 8:00pm classes. Take your pick, ziE. Just get up and do em! START THIS MONDAY NO EXCUSES. NO EXCUSES NO EXCUSES NO EXCUSES.

108 now.. Monday is the 28th.

Monday 4pm/6pm/8pm

Tuesday 6pm/8pm

Wednesday 430pm/630pm

Thursday 600pm/800pm

Friday 430pm/630pm

Saturday 300pm

Sunday 930am

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I’m going to pay for unlimited sessions for 1 month. Make it worth it. I need to go AT LEAST 4 times a week to make it worth it. Going to try to do two sessions a day sometimes if I can manage!

OK go ziE!

Be jealous. Be inspired. Go crazy. Don’t ever stop thinking. Think think. Get inspired. Make something out of nothing. Make everything out of something. You can do it! You’re born to be successful. Helloooo. Just look at how you’re doing now. Lol at your salary. Lol at how your life has been going the past 2 years. Don’t quit. Just keep going. Remember! Ain’t getting younger. Now get your ass up and do yoga! Eat right. Write like you mean it! Get inspired! Be!!

Because I want to be treated like how he treats Veronica.

Lesson learned: don’t double season.

I made Green Chicken Curry. I fried the chicken separately before adding them to the sauce. The sauce tasted good, unfortunately I made the chicken too salty (marinated in soy with seasoned flour) that it ruined the sauce after I incorporated them both.

Next time, I’ll just forego the soy and/or don’t season the flour. ;[

This will be perfect next time!

• Thai Green Curry Chicken / Red Curry
• Ma Lai Go (Malay Cake)
• Chicken Soup
• Orange Chicken
• Sweet and Sour Pork
• Fried Rice
• Wonton Soup
• Pork with Shrimp Dumplings
• Indian Curry / Masala / Rogan Josh
• Potato Salad
• Chicken Cordon Bleu
• Baked Rice (Chicken, Cheese)
• PANCAKES
• Paella
• Mexican Soft Tacos

A growing list!

Woke up with a pretty bad fever. Haven’t been sick for a while. Now have to stay home, was supposed to go out in a series of Christmas dinners with my brother and his friends. :/

Need to get well in time for New Year’s.. but at the moment feel very, very, very sick. Lost my voice too hah. Come bring me chicken soup :]